Extremes

I never knew I could be as happy as I was over the last couple of months…The excitement, newness, challenges, and firsts were so much more wonderful than I could have ever dreamed…For the first time, I felt that I began to see a glimpse of God’s example of his love for us as his bride in my relationship with someone here on earth…I thought it the most amazing blessing possible, and I fully expected to continue to experience more and more of such a wonderful gift!

Short of dealing with the death of loved ones, I never knew I could hurt as much as I do now…I pray for the day I will be able to look back and have some glimpse of why it makes sense that he so unexpectedly chose to walk away – shattering all of the plans and dreams we had made together…I always knew he belonged to God, and that what He’d given, He had every right to take away…I thought I understood God’s plan, but I didn’t…and so…I’m not angry, simply broken – seeking healing, hope, and peace. So far, the memories overtake me consistently and without reprieve, and the hurt is intense but I have to trust that He will bring me through…and I couldn’t be more thankful for the friends and family that are loving me through it all…

As the World Turns...

Well, I think I’ve made it halfway through my crazy busy season of events, and my stress level is still increasing! Events have begun to overlap and thus I’m missing some of them, which makes me sad… and still yet, July is gonna be a doozy!!! Soo many weddings!!!

Thankfully, Boyfriend is being patient with my spaz outs…He’s even quite helpful amidst the craziness. Without him and my ‘awesome’ parents, as he calls them, I’d be a complete mess!!! Yay for the fantabulous support system God has put in place for me!!! Just when I think my part of the world is gonna spin right off the map, one of them steps in to help and I’m back on the globe again…All I can say is…I am super duper thankful!!!